Job’s Story

I remember you. Yes, you. I can’t reach out now but I hope this finds you well.

Of all your struggles, I often tell you God is always there. Please always have faith and pray. Pray – every night you remind me so often esp when I get nightmares. Your reminders irritates me sometimes as I always do so every night, it appears as if I’m not praying ‘enough’. However, I realize now how genuine that message is. It must have been hard for you to pray and believe in miracles having experienced a lot of loss.

You know, I pray for you every night and hardly on nights when you are losing your faith. How ironic that you sometimes lose faith when you always encourage me to always have faith. We both needed the balance we created.

Then, I read Job’s Story. It was just a summary my friend linked me to but it was enough to awaken me how hard it must’ve been for Job and for you – makes me cry.

I realize I lack empathy. I did not try to fit my entire foot to your shoe. I’m sorry. You must have felt so alone every night you think of all the problems throwing your way, you most of the time think problems just keeps on piling up. Sorting possible income to pay dues and bills till twilight. Working and thinking how to stretch your 15-day salary to get by. I know the struggle, all of them. Sometimes, when I offer you help you accept them but thats just a probable of 1:10 times. I certainly have trust that you will make it through.

I hope you always have a clear mind and fight through circumstances like Job. You sometimes don’t know how to be happy anymore, asking what is truly happiness and what is the purpose in life – is it suffering? Life must have been so hard you became so bitter. You are a good person, the purest heart I know. Like Job, you deserve all the blessings and prosperity. It’s hard trying to find where and who to find comfort in those time but deep in your heart you always know who. Simply bring your knees to the ground.

You always have a rebuttal everytime I told you to keep the faith and that is – You can only say that because you did not experience what I experience. Yes! That is true. I should’ve not insisted but rather just be there to hear you out. I regret not being there on your heights of emotions and on your darkest hour. I’m sorry I failed you but please don’t fail yourself. You might thought He failed you, testing you but it is not His doings. He don’t put you to the test but instead walking with you, resting with you. Youcan always find refugee with His arms as long as you needed to.

I always believe in God. Always thankful and grateful. There are some learnings I am yet to uncover. This story is one of those stumbleupon moment that touches you and made you think of someone.

I think of you and continuing to pray for you. XOXO