An Overly Attached Person

Hi, it’s Jude and I just feel the need to introduce myself because I wanted to give you a heads up on who you are dealing with. I am not tryna be anything or appear like I’m tough nevertheless. Instead I am here vulnerable talking some sense into you and some kick of enlightenment if ever my attachment to current events and to slight environment changes gets to you.

Yes, I am an overly attached person and I am aware of that.

I am one who’ll spent the rest of day on a bad mood if some couple whom I followed online breaks up. I am one who’ll bulge my eyes out crying for someone I idolize that recently died. I am one who’ll be upset if animals welfare are on stake and abusive videos goes viral on the net.

Truth to be told, I am just the way I am. I choose people that influence me, that is why it always hurts having to witness a couple breaking up when all you have done is looking at them on pictures/videos, #relationshipgoal-ing them and create this illusion that maybe someday, if blessed with a good life, something like that would come into my life.

I don’t think, that is not living in the reality nonetheless.

Can anybody stop comparing reality to the virtual reality? Reality is reality. PERIOD.
I mean, I am not entirely consumed to their relationship, but at least can I be sad for a while?
Is that too much to ask?

I love music. I cant do anything without music. It helps me do things with an extra life into it.

As far as I can remember I’ve been such a music lover. I can totally say that music is a part of my life, of my being, of myself. No one can ever take that away from me.
And with some news that someone as young and as talented has been shot dead?
That’s just devastating, isn’t it? It makes you hate the world.

She was part of my playlists, part of the daily routine that gets me through the day, and in the long run helped me build who I am right now.
Does spending a small amount of time for her glory, praise her and just shed some tear for the things she never thought she’d done in your life, makes you someone who’s away from reality?Oh, I hope by now you know I am a massive TV series fanatic and a huge shipper.
If were talking about reality, well this should be something on the billboard for you to read it. You should’ve saw me cry for a sudden death of a character I love the most. I cried for days for them, replay scenes all over again and still get emotional.

And that’s just the way I am. An overly attached person.

And I wanna own it, I wanna claim it. And yes I am an Overly Attached Person.
And if you are dating me, I’m sorry if having to be emotional on most things gets to you.
Can’t help being me.

I hate to break it to you but I am just as unfortunate to be dating you too.
I am telling you what bothers me, this is a part of my reality. I am actually sharing a piece of my mind, a piece of myself with you. And you constantly telling me I should not worry with such things just cause they’re not reality makes it more evident that you don’t really get me.Well, this is reality.

You not getting me.
So, am I now allowed to weep cause this right here is reality.
Your “kind of reality”. Also, this right here is another piece of my mind.
I hope this does not get into your reality illusion since it is now posted online.
Guess, reality changes when it is online eh?Now, you must be asking “What do you want me to do?”
If its not obvious then let me tell you.
I am just asking for a little sympathy, a little of support.
And I am one who asks them from people who I draw strength to.

I don’t post my frustrations online, or rant them on social medias. I am a decent person who deals with this attachment problems on private. And I thought having to share them to someone close to my heart would ease the pain, cause mostly I run to you on my every downfall.

I don’t ask for much, I am only asking for you to be there even if you’re delirious just cause its not “reality”. Does a little “Its okay, let’s spend a little time to be sad. Would that be okay?” and a slight kisses hurt?

Whats more sickening is when you talk to them with these burdens and they casually tell you to shrug it off cause its not “reality”.

Wait, what? uggghh. Check your reality too. I am really pissed.