Friendship on the ROUGH

            This is a story of a girl who came to terms with her self’s wants. By wants, means everything that can make her happy. She never believe being happy is a status, it’s merely a word to her that any human say to make the other envy them. To her, being in her unscratched, inflexed constant normal face is staying in the neural side of things. Because by the time she heard about physics law that states “For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction”, which she truly believes now. She starts to live with it. She don’t want to be happy and cry at the same time in one day. So she decided to live her life as a machine. She follows everyone’s opinion, she wanted to please every human being she met. Getting into elementary school was a blind memory, she just remembered one thing, in every ending ceremony of the school year there’s not a single year she can’t receive the most behave recognition. She was intelligent but not a leader. She just can’t find the voice to speak up, in every turn of events, she just find herself at the corner thinking how dope she was and still is. She do well at school, she do homework and try hard to get through alive cause that’s only what her parents want, they want her to graduate. But there are things you just can’t learn with a piece of chalk on a blackboard. At the end, it’s not the intelligence we are after it’s the principle that is being built up by the experience we are going through as we enter school every day. And she neglect herself that, even when she’s in high school. There’s just a little difference of environment. In high school, she starts to actually talk to people not just listen to them. And she kinda accepts that leisure and finally come across with laughing and its effect of lighten up daily loads. She starts to join groups and organization that bring out the hidden talents she have. But because she was known to be lonely and silent, she reject the thought of being an outcast singer, she choose to be a dancer instead. Not the lead dancer but the one’s at the back. She always loves singing, it was her life but she always brushes the thoughts away because she knows bully kids are just around the corner. On the contrary, she never thought anyone had a serious crush on her. She never felt so beautiful in her life until a guy enter the scene and chitchat about random stuff. She was ignorant of the attention. She never intended to be notice by someone at all. She just aims to get through since her mother wanted her to stay away from guys, she actually made a decision but it is based on people’s convenience other than hers. She lives under the stack of shadows that is only getting high. She can drown but then an undefined noun word comes around bouncing. She got herself a friend; the very first in her entire life. She was naïve of how people viewed her on their perspective and this friend shows what world she is missing. She hides herself away from the world and only by then she realized that she mattered. Her friend makes her feel comfortable in her own skin and constantly patronizing her on her down times and it made her smile though she knows her friend is exaggerating. She never experience companionship and never indulge into fun activity. She’s the saddest statue in the world but with a friend now, she starts to see the bright side. She doesn’t want to disappear anymore. She wanted to live with the play button instead of always looking forward. It was the only moment of her life where she feels special without the people commenting on it. Her parents are okay with it, her classmates don’t talk about it and she felt everything is right into its own places, genuine joy at its finest.

    –Written by my younger self. I just found it in one of my old lecture notebook. See how sad I was back then? And then again I am forever thankful for the friendship that helped me survive highschool and actually live on it. I had something to reminisce and share whenever people talk about highschool life. Long Live Highschool Memories.

To: you know who know who you are –> Thank you  for the friendship ^_^ though it fade through time still it’s something to look back on.